Used

I feel so used. That girl was only staring at me on the bus cuz she was listening in on my BFF and me to report to her older sister. She is trying to find things to gossip about. She's that kind of person that needs to bring others down to bring herself up. I can't believe she brought her sister into it too. Her sister must be a little clone of her. Ugh. I don't know why she stares at me when she gets off though. She like stares and then smirks like she's amused. I've just started to ignore her.

Yay my crush broke up with his girlfriend! I can stop being quite as mad at him. :)

My cousin told this random guy that I like him...Well, he mouthed it to him. I hope he didn't understand, cuz that would be really bad. If his girlfriend found out, she'd be really mad at me. Cuz they're both like obsessed with each other. XD So I pray he didn't understand. *sigh*

Nothing else really new. Life really hasn't gotten all the much better yet...but I'm hanging on.

Bad news, bad news, and bad news

Okay, so I didn't get to go to the concert and today I found out that this guy I know would have been able to get free tickets and might have given them to me. :( I'm so tired of everyone talking about it, and I hate seeing all these girls with t-shirts from the show. I really want to buy one on ebay, then maybe I'll feel a little better.

My crush is now going out with this one girl who is sometimes nice to me...Other times she just ignores me. Sometimes she randomly comes up to my BFF and I and says we're her new best friends...I think it's all an act. I don't think she really cares about us that much...And now whenever she does it, I have to force a smile.

There's this Halloween Party I want to go to, but I don't want to go alone. My BFF doesn't really want to go, cuz she doesn't think anything will happen with her and her crush (she's so wrong), PLUS last night she got in a fight with her parents and now they won't even let her go. Hopefully she can persuade them tonight...

Okay, so there's this girl in my grade who is one my bus. And she has a younger sister in my younger sister's grade. The younger sister has this blank...almost lost look in her eyes when she's alone and not talking to anyone. I know I have that kind of look a lot...mostly when I'm sitting alone or just not talking to anyone. So, when they get off the bus in the afternoon, the younger sister usually looks at the bus with that look, and her eyes land on me. At first I just thought they happened to land on me, but when I avert my eyes slightly down and to the left, her gaze follows mine. And they still have that lost look. And I like looking into her eyes like that because it makes me feel like I'm not alone. Like she knows how it feels to feel so lost and alone.

Her old sister is this really popular girl who gets everything she wants and so is totally spoiled. I always assumed her younger sister would be the same, but even if she is popular, I think she has a depth to her that her old sister doesn't have. But she just puzzles me. I want to know more about her...and what's with that look of hers...Is she really alone, scared, or lost kinda like me?

- Shelly

Nothing New

Nothing really has been happening lately...I REALLY want to go to Miley/Hannah's concert, but it's not so easy finding cheap tickets...Ugh.

- Shelly

Far Away

OMG. I set Windows Media Player on shuffle and right now "Far Away" by Nickelback is playing. That's the song that was playing when I danced with my crush, N. Memories are flooding back...I just wish I could do it again. But I'll never get that close to him. The closest I'll ever get is in Math class where I sit right next to him. He constantly has a spearmint lifesaver in his mouth, so I'm in heaven whenever I'm near him. It brings back memories from the dance. Anyway, in Math I can faintly smell him. His natural scent is heavenly, but mixed with spearmint is even better. Now I actually like math class. XD

And I sit near him in LA and Spanish too. Yay! But that means I don't pay as much attention in class...but I'm smart and a straight A student so I should be fine. I'm still paying a good amount of attention.

- Shelly

Crush...

My crush sits next to me in several classes, so it's sometimes hard to concentrate. But since he sits next to me in Math, I actually don't hate that class anymore. XD I'll explain more later. Gotta go...

- Shelly

In Heaven

OMG! Yesterday I went to a party where like everyone in my grade was there and some people who go to public schools, but are friends with some of the people at my school.

I got asked to dance by this one guy...but I think it was just because this other guy told him to because he wanted to ask my bff to dance (she has a huge crush on him and I like him a little) and he didn't want to do it alone...It was the first time I ever dance with a guy, so even though he didn't really like me at all, it was fun.

Later we played this game called Snowball. It started with a couple dancing. Then the DG said 'Snowball' and both the people had to find new people to dance with. It continued until everyone was dancing. Some guy we don't know asked my bff. Then this guy who I have crush on that I'm friends with asked me. I was like OMG! And this happened to be the last dance, and it was the longest one. So, I danced with him and I loved every second of it. I mean, it was just like where I had my arms around his neck and his hands resting on my waist, nothing big, but STILL. And I know it didn't mean anything and he doesn't like me, but I'm glad that even though I'm not his first choice, I'm not his last. Plus, he was chewing spearmint gum or something, so he smelled REALLY good. I wanted to lay in his arms or something, but I couldn't...and what is sad is I doubt he'd ever like me and after this year I doubt I'll ever see him again...So I know that I'll be writing something really special in his yearbook this year...

Oh, and then the guy who asked my bff to dance earlier also asked her during snowball. They're a really cute couple. :) I just wish my crush really did like me...

- Shelly

Almost Time

Not much has been going on...but for school this year every middle school student gets to use a laptop for the year! But you have to pay $161 per person...which sucks, plus the laptop is Apple, which I hate, and we're only supposed to use it for educational purposes, so I can't use it to go onto my forums. Plus, we can't download anything, so I can't download MSN messenger to talk to friends...Although there is a built in camera I can play with with a bunch of effects that makes the picture look weird. lol but that's pretty much the only thing on it that could be amusing...

I still can't believe school is almost here.But we're going to the fair sometime this weekend. That should be fun. :)

- Shelly

School Again...

I went to the zoo w/ my BFF the other day and had tons of fun. Nothing else really has been happening.

I can't believe school is starting up in less than 2 weeks!!! It seems like Summer zoomed by. Ugh.

- Shelly

Tony

OMG! Another freaky-but-totally-awesome-thing happened with a guy yesterday when we went to the pool. My little cousin who is my younger sister's age, he came up to me and said that he saw Tony, a guy who is on his bus (my old bus). I told him to go tell him that I think he's a jerk (cuz I do), but he was too scared to go up to him and his friend.

Before I continue, I'll explain about this Tony guy. Before my family and I move, he was on our bus. My cousin, Dani, and Gabri (my lil' sis) were obsessed with him and thought he was like royalty or something. In truth, he was just a total jerk. I got mad at them for thinking he's so great. That was four years ago, so I didn't even recognize him, and I don't think he did until my cousin pointed me out. We've both changed tons. I know I've change inside and out, but I don't know if he did. Anyway, I was in third grade and he was in fourth when I moved. I don't know if he's changed, but I doubt I'll ever get a chance to find out even if we're going to the same High School. It's not like he'd give me the time of day...

Anyway...I told my cousin (I don't know why I was so stupid) that I thought Tony was cute, and he goes over to him and tells him!!! Later, he tells him I think he's a jerk. My cousin says he said that he hates it when girls think he's a jerk. I find it sweet he cares what I think...kinda...And later he points me out to him. Tony smiles at me and waves. I wave and give him a fake smile, then walk away. I don't know if my cousin was lying about telling him I think he's cute, but no matter what I don't really mind...

I hope he's changed, because he's soooo cute...but I'm sure he thinks I'm a freak or something...I hope he's at the pool the next time I go!

- Shelly

Guys!!!

The other day at the pool when Dani and I were sitting at a table in the food area, and it turned out a couple guys from my school who I had seen earlier in the pool, were sitting at the table across from us with a bunch of their friends from the local public school. One of the guys, AC, was the one who kept saying hi to me toward the last couple months of school. The other one was PB, who I have a small crush on, but he's a total jerk so I'm almost over him. Anyway, when Dani and I sat down, AC said hi to me and then everyone else waved. I was like OMG! And I was totally freaking out inside. THEN one of the guys who I've never met before came over to us and asked me what grade I was in, if I knew those guys, and if I went to the same school as them. I told him my grade and that yeah I knew them and I go to their school. Then another guy came over and was like "How's life?" I replied, "Uh...good..." Then they both walked away, leaving me there, freaking out. It's not every day a couple cute and popular guys from school say hi to me AND a couple of their cute friends come over and talk to me...They have no idea how they made my dad...

I can't even think of anything else that's been going on...I still can't stop thinking about that instance.

- Shelly

This Weekend

We're going up north to visit our grandparents for the weekend. And today my parents surprised my sisters and I by telling us that Sunday night we'd be spending at a water park! I've been to the Wilderness resort in Wisconsin Dells, so water parks around here don't impress me very much, but they still can be fun :)! This weekend should be more fun than I thought. Although I will probably still call my friend like I was planning on doing cuz while I'm at my grandparent's house it'll be pretty boring...

Oooo! On Monday when we went to the pool, this cute guy from my class actually said hi to me AND asked me what's up. He's done that at school, but no guy has done it out of school before...In fact, they usually ignore me...but this guy is really nice, so he said hi...It was so awesome...hehe

I GOT MILEY/HANNAH'S CD! It is so awesome!!! I love it!!!

Keys To Your Heart

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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THREE DAYS TILL MILEY'S CD COMES OUT! I've actually heard most of them on youtube cuz some people have them from GMA! They are AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fighting

My sibs won't stop fighting...you wouldn't think D is almost 16 and G is 11...more like 5 and 7 or something...UGH!!!!!

A week till Miley's CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Romance...

A couple nights ago I had an awesome dream! This guy who wasn't any specific person, he kissed me...and it was awesome...sigh...

Anyway...Miley/Hannah's CD comes out a week from tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And the episodes where Jake comes back airs next Sunday! Miley and him kiss and he says he loves her AND SHE TELLS HIM SHE'S HANNAH MONTANA!

Next month the ep where Miley (well actually Hannah) dates Jesse McCartney! I can't wait for that too!!!!!!

- Shelly

Sunburn AH!

On Sunday we watched a three hour parade and it was really hot. I got my arms burned, but it's worth it cuz I got tons of candy :). Wednesday we went to the pool and I suntanned for basically the whole 3 hours. I burned my leg, back, and chest, but at least I'm tan! My leg is really the only part that hurts anymore cuz none of the burns were that bad. It's nothing compared to burn in Florida. Now THAT hurts.

We got a new digital camera cuz the screen for our old one broke. This one is a tiny bit bigger and the screen is a three inch instead while our old one had a two inch. It's soooo much cooler and fun to use! Haha. I already took 21 pictures with it. lol

We also got a new TV cuz one of ours broke cuz it's like 15 years old or something. The new one is a lot cooler. :)

I gotta do something with my bff M soon...Maybe see if she wants to go to the pool with me next week. Or maybe we could do a movie night or something.

- Shelly

SUMMER!!

IT'S FINALLY SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe that school is actually over...I only have one more year at my school...and next year we're gonna be the ones on top of the school...It's creepy...*shudders*

The pool party I went to last night was really cool...a bit depressing for reasons I'd rather not go into...We had water fights and had tons of fun.

16 days till Miley/Hannah's CD comes out.

- Shelly

Strange...

Some random people have been saying hi to my bff and I...It wouldn't be so strange if it wasn't so many people all in two days...One girl said hi to us three times yesterday, twice to day, and she waved to me once today. Then there is this guy I haven't talked to for years, for the past few months he's been randomly saying hi to me...even though I don't really know him anymore...

Then there is this guy who says my bff and I are his "best friends" and he's been talking with us a lot. And my bff heard some people trying to get him to tell who he likes...and he said she is kinda annoying and has a 5th grade sister...and I have a sis in 5th grade and I can be kinda annoying...There's only like 2 other people in our grade with 5th grade sisters, and it so can't be those two...So I think he likes me...Kinda freaky considering on Friday there is a party I'm going to...I wonder if he'll ask me to dance...I don't know what I'd say considering my bff has a crush on him...

Yesterday after he talked to this group of people, my bff and I walked past and they all said hi to us...My bff and I think that they might be trying to set us up or something...considering I'm thinking that guy likes me, I think they might be trying to set me up with him...I guess we'll find out on Friday...

Anyway...ONLY TWO MORE DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOl!!!!!!! Haha!

19 more days till Miley/Hannah's CD comes out!!!

- Shelly

One More Week!

Only five more days left of school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait!

On Friday we're going bowling and then after school I'm going to an end of the year pool party. It should be awesome!

23 days till Miley/Hannah's CD comes out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I still haven't seen POTC 3 and I really want to...ugh...I also want to see Spider Man 3 eventually...

Memorial Weekend

Ugh...so boring...I have to go to my cousins' house...and it's not fun. Most of my cousins are a lot younger and hence are really annoying...Who knows what I'll be forced to do...I wish I could go to my other cousins' house because then maybe I could get them to invite their friend over that I have a crush on...hehe...but no...I'm stuck at my younger cousins' house...

28 days till Miley/Hannah's CD comes out! And 19 days until the next Hannah Montana episode airs!!!!

- Shelly

UGH!

I just got back from a walk with my sisters, Dani and Gabri, and my younger cousin, Jacob. We were just going to go on this one walking path, but then my cousin wanted to go on this nature path. It was confusing and the path we ended up taking took like 20 minutes to go through...and it was gross! Lots of dirt and bugs! Plus, I had on sandals because I thought we were only going to go on the walking path and be gone for like 15 minutes total. When we finally got out, it took us another 30 minutes or so to finally figure out how to get home. Every 5 minutes my little sister, Gabri, wanted to take a break. For someone who didn't complain on an 8 mile bike ride, she was acting like quite a baby. She sat down in the grass several times and so we left her each time. We only went a few feet and looked back every few seconds, making sure she was going to follow us, but when we got home and she told our parents, they got really mad at us...Dani and I didn't want them to come in the first place! So she and I are never going to let our parents convince us to make us bring Gabri along on a walk ever again.

Anyway...9 more days of school! And yet it seems like soooo much time!

30 days till Miley and Hannah's CD comes out! Can't wait!

Back

I'm back from camping! It was awesome! My cousin was trying to make my laugh by tickling me the entire time. I'm only ticklish if it's by surprise or if I was laughing about something else already. So, last night when we were in the pop up trailer alone when it was dark out, we had a pillow fight in the dark. I was laughing and he started tickling me, so I started laughing even harder. It was fun XD!

14 days left of school...37 till Miley's CD.

- Shelly

More Quizzes

Your Vocabulary Score: B-

You have a zealous love for the English language, and many find your vocabulary edifying. Don't fret that you didn't get every word right, your vocabulary can be easily ameliorated!

How's Your Vocabulary?

You Are 60% Republican

You aren't a full fledged Republican yet, but it's probably the party that fits you best. You probably consider yourself an independent Republican. You usually support the party, but you also think for yourself!

How Republican Are You?

You Are 0% Democrat

If you have anything in common with the Democrat party, it's by sheer chance. You're a staunch conservative, and nothing is going to change that!

How Democrat Are You?

You Are 35% Left Brained, 65% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what. Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out. And while some may get hurt by your honesty... At least everyone knows where you stand!

How Honest Are You?

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

You Are 48% Shy

Although you live a pretty normal life, you tend to be a fairly shy person. Many situations make you feel uncomfortable, and you sometimes find your shyness hindering your life.

How Shy Are You?

You Are a Auditory Learner

You tend to remember what you hear, and you have a knack for speaking well. You excel at debating, foreign languages, and music. You would be an excellent diplomat - or rock star!

What's Your Learning Style?

Your Geek Profile:

Gamer Geekiness: Low SciFi Geekiness: Low Academic Geekiness: None Fashion Geekiness: None Geekiness in Love: None General Geekiness: None Internet Geekiness: None Movie Geekiness: None Music Geekiness: None

How Geeky Are You?

American Cities That Best Fit You:

65% Austin 65% Seattle 60% Honolulu 55% Denver 55% San Diego

Which American Cities Best Fit You?

You Failed 8th Grade Geography

Sorry, you only got 5/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Geography?

You Are 79% American

You're as American as red meat and shooting ranges. Tough and independent, you think big. You love everything about the US, wrong or right. And anyone who criticizes your home better not do it in front of you!

How American Are You?

You Are 32% Open Minded

You aren't exactly open minded, but you have been known to occasionally change your mind. You're tolerant enough to get along with others who are very different... But you may be quietly judgmental of things or people you think are wrong. You take your own values pretty seriously, and it would take a lot to change them.

How Open Minded Are You?

Your Birth Month is January

You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can. Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you. Your soul reflects: deep love, fascination with life, and a distinctive persona Your gemstone: Garnet Your flower: Snowdrop Your colors: Black, dark red, and dark blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 9/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are 40% Addicted to Blogthings

Okay, so you know how to take and post a Blogthing. But you're no addict. (Hey, this quiz *proves* it!) For you, Blogthings is more of a healthy habit. At least, that's what you tell yourself!

How Addicted To Blogthings Are You?

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion. Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu.. Your convictions are strong and unwavering. You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

Impatience

I can't wait for school to be over! 17 more days! And 42 days till Miley's CD comes out..153 till Jesse's...And three more days till I go camping! I can't wait! It should be awesome! My bff isn't going...only my two sisters, one of my cousins, my uncle, and me are going.

Ugh, I have a year final in Spanish in a couple weeks...so not fun.

Quizes

You Are an Afternoon Person

You can find energy any time of the day ... or night! You prefer to be out and about when most other people are. Very early mornings or very late nights aren't really your thing. You're practically solar powered, and the afternoon is when do best.

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

Men See You As Understated

You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well

How Do Men See You?

You Are Not a Dumb American

You got 6/10 correct. You know a good deal about American history, but there's some basic facts you have wrong. Time to go back to history class!

Are You a Dumb American?

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet

"Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night."

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

Your Linguistic Profile:

60% General American English 15% Upper Midwestern 10% Yankee 5% Dixie 5% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Your Cell Phone Etiquette is 32% Bad, 68% Good

Your cell phone manners are quite good. Not perfect, but almost. Occasionally, you do annoy people with your cell. But when you realize it, you stop.

How's Your Cell Phone Etiquette?

Your Political Profile:

Overall: 65% Conservative, 35% Liberal Social Issues: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal Personal Responsibility: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal Fiscal Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal Ethics: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal Defense and Crime: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

How Liberal Or Conservative Are You?

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

You Are 64% Creative

You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word. You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times.

How Creative Are You?

Cool vids

Haha. I was bored, so I listened to the Barney song over and over again yesterday.



Some cool vids.

Life Is Never Fair

Ok, so there is this girl who is this girl who is five years older than me, but in this past year I've really gotten to know her well. She is like a sister to me now. She's really nice and totally in tune with her faith. Now she's gonna leave the state or possibly country then probably going to college...And if I can't go to her graduation then last night was the last time I'll see her until Christmas time! Last night we hugged for like a minute or two cuz we're gonna miss her so much. I never wanted to stop hugging her, but I had to. I hope I'll be able to go to her graduation...not sure when it is though...sometime in June is all I know...

The good news is that there is only 19 more days of school! And 45 more days till Miley and Hannah's CD comes out.

I also found out Jesse McCartney is coming out with a third CD in October! 157 days till that! Oh and only one of my cousins are going camping now and they're not inviting anyone, so bother my sisters and I are going...possibly my bff too...

- Shelly

Good News!

The date of when we're going camping has changed, so my older brother might be able to go! That means that my bff might be able to go! I'll have to call him soon and see if he can go...but I hope so.

23 more days of school...This last month is going by soooooo slow....

50 days till Miley's CD and the second season soundtrack of Hannah Montana come out! Yay!!!

Moms...

My mom thinks she knows what I'm going through as a teenager in this day and age and at the school I'm going to. Never in a million years would she ever know, but she says she does. I don't want to explain to her in details, because it's personal, but when I was vague, she just told me to grow up...Grow up! That is what I was forced to do! In late elementary school and early middle school I went through things I didn't think I'd have to face until high school! Even my older sister didn't go through anything like that yet...It's just the luck of the people I got in my grade...Ugh. And my mom has no idea. In general, teenagers' lives are more stressful. Teens are so much more judgmental and such, and it puts so much more pressure on everyone...All in all, she DOESN'T know what I'm going through and she shouldn't say she does when she has no idea.

Miley Cyrus!

Guess what! 51 more days till Miley Cyrus's personal album and the second season Hannah Montana soundtrack comes out! I can't wait!

And only 24 more days left of school! I wish time would go faster though...

Ugh, I don't know what to do. I might go camping with a couple of my cousin's, one of their friends, their dad, and my older sister. I want them to bring the guy that we went camping with for like 5 days over the summer and I got a crush on and really got to know....but they don't want to. Instead they're asking some other guy, and I'm afraid he'll be a total jerk and won't want anything to do with me...I wish there was more room in my uncle's car so my bff could come too...I wish my mom would come so we'd have another car so we'd have enough room for my bff...Guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens...

Pace out!
Shelly

First Post!

Yay! This is my first post!

I'm writing the "story of my life" for school and also listening to music and the Hannah Montana episode my older sister is watching right now all at the same time. Haha. I'm actually not doing much writing because I'm distracted by my music, the TV, and posting on a couple roleplay forums.

Peace out!

- Shelly